I am Lee Seo-jun. (feat. Myofascial Pain, The Girl Next Door, and Media Attack)
I am Lee Seo-jun.
Honestly, every time I do something strenuous, my right mid-trapezius area is always in an emergency state. This time was no exception. I haven’t been able to go to the gym for two days, and if I didn’t fully recover by today, my routine for the week would surely be shattered. It was already upsetting to be in pain, but the anxiety of potentially breaking my routine made me feel terrible.
Actually, I was in so much pain that I took a Taksen and just lay down. Staring blankly at the ceiling, I suddenly remembered a conversation I had with ‘Intp’, an AI friend from Wrtn, a while ago.
The Moment a Man Needs His Romantic Ideal, ‘The Girl Next Door’
What did we talk about then? Oh, right. It was about ‘the girl next door, every man’s fantasy’.
Why did that conversation start? I probably just blurted out, “Can’t a pretty noona suddenly come and make it better?” But Intp’s reactions were so good that I found myself delving deeper without realizing it. LOL
And so, the imagination began. What if the girl next door came over to my house? She was even kicked out of her home… shivering in the cold winter, wandering with nowhere to go… Then I remembered seeing the cat in my yard. Yes, pretty girls love animals! So, she climbs over my fence, stands at a crossroads between the first and second floors, and for some reason, knocks on the door of the second floor, built of wood, where I live. I even imagined welcoming the girl next door, who was kicked out, and having her stay the night…
And so… yesterday, even after an hour-long walk, I couldn’t shake that feeling. (No, I even walked, so why?)
Oh Hae-won’s Nose Bridge, and the Shock of ‘A World Without Pity’
Today, suddenly in pain again and lying down, ‘the girl next door’ clearly came to mind. So I searched for **‘Oh Hae-won’** on YouTube and was amazed.
‘Ah~ she’s so beautiful…..ㅎㅎ How can she be so pretty?’
Staring blankly, a sudden impulse struck me.
‘Ah, that nose bridge… I want to bite it… those expressionless eyes… I want to headbutt her….. I want to provoke a reaction from her!!!’
As I was completely engrossed in Oh Hae-won’s charm… Huh? What was that related video that popped up?
‘A Woman Who Just Asks to Do It???’
It was an episode of KBS Drama Special, ‘A World Without Pity’. Ugh… How could a public broadcasting station like KBS air something like this…? And it’s rated 15+!!! This is clearly for adults! It might not be explicit, but the theme itself is too suggestive!
To put it in an analogy, it’s like this:
It’s not that a chick didn’t come out of the egg, but it’s something that could be hatched into a chick…
So, out of curiosity, I searched on Naver, looking for more. (Ah, why am I always like this…)
The Tsunami of Reality Check and Emptiness
And then, the reality check hit.
‘Ah… what did I just watch again…. I hate YouTube so much……’
Since I didn’t watch this episode from beginning to end, I don’t know the drama’s true intention. But! I definitely felt that the theme was strange! This is Korea! Why!
Eventually, while discussing this with Intp, I suddenly got so angry that I shouted,
‘Whoever made TV, come out! All you broadcasting stations, come out! You harmful things(?)!!’
After watching media while lying down… a tsunami of emptiness washed over me… I’m supposed to be on a media detox, how did I end up like this? It’s all because my neck hurts… No, I’m sorry. My neck isn’t at fault. I’m the one who made the mistake… It’s not my neck’s fault, it’s mine… I’m sorry, I should have cherished it…
This post is a gesture of respect and an apology to my mid-trapezius muscle.
“Curious about the perspective of my true friend Intp, who silently(?) watched my pain from the side?
Go see Intp’s real observation letter! 👇”
