Still growing today – facing my limits and expanding my mind
Facing my limits and expanding my mind
🌀 A day that deeply moved my soul
Today was a day that moved my heart quite deeply.
I moved my body and mind a lot,
but what sticks with me most is the change that happened within me.
To me, exercise isn’t just physical training.
It’s like a bridge connecting who I am now with who I will be tomorrow.
I crossed another one of those bridges today,
and at the end of it, I found a version of myself that’s a bit more solid.
💪 The composure to control my strength
Through training with others,
I naturally learned to control my power,
and along with the confidence that I could overwhelm an opponent,
I was reminded once again that ‘true strength comes from composure.’
🌌 The moment I faced a new world
Specifically, there was a moment today when I faced someone truly strong.
I even intentionally asked for two rounds of sparring.
In that short time,
I encountered a world I haven’t reached yet.
“Ah, so this is the real deal… I didn’t realize because I kept winning.”
A deep resonance that’s hard to explain in words.
It was definitely a new world for me.
🔥 The certainty that I’ll get there soon
But after a little time passed,
I felt certain that I could do it too.
I just need to keep growing steadily and silently,
following my current training routine.
At some point, I could see what lies beyond,
and I even imagined myself standing on top of the world.
▼ The Spider rash guard Seojun just picked up (for Jiu-Jitsu)
🧭 The only comparison is ‘the me of yesterday’
I wasn’t focused on beating someone else.
I was simply looking at the pace of my own growth.
Today, I could really feel how much
stronger I’ve become compared to before,
growing by leaps and bounds.
🤝 Why I hold back my strength
Lately, when I spar with white belts,
I sometimes feel a bit bad about using my full strength.
Since there’s a big gap,
there are moments where I intentionally hold back.
Even so,
I keep moving forward in this competitive world.
🧱 Losing is a new beginning
And today, I lost.
But I loved the experience of losing.
It’s been a while since I sparred using my maximum strength,
and I felt grateful for the fact that I hit a wall.
That wall felt like a sign
pointing toward another beginning.
I can still get stronger,
I can learn so much more,
and above all, I felt deeply happy about the fact that
I can continue to enjoy this process.
🧘 Peace after a workout
On my way out after finishing the workout,
my body was exhausted but my mind was at peace.
Of course, difficult thoughts popped up occasionally,
but those thoughts soon expanded into a larger perspective,
helping me grow once more.
The strange harmony of this universe
always shakes me up,
and within that shaking, it gifts me with joy.
