Abstinence Wasn't Oppression, It Was Real Love

🎮 Her in the game, a strange thrill

I'm looking at a character in a game.
Strangely Feel like a girlfriendwas heard.
One look, one gesture, and my heart flutters,
I was overwhelmed and emotional.

It's not real,
She seemed to be looking at me.
However, my brain was flooded with dopamine and I realized that the
I definitely felt it.
That you've been attacked by dopamine.

However, as you can see from the screenshot
Feel like you're on a vacation with your friends
We also felt connected to each other.

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💤 And for over 2 hours... a very deep dream

Before you start the game,
I took a nap.
I had a very long, deep dream that lasted over two hours.

In my dreams, I'm still ‘Abstinent’was.
I've had touching and warm feelings with my female selves.
I stopped at a crucial moment.

Also, when there was sexual stimulation, I thought to myself.

‘Is this okay...?’

Feeling emotions in real life, even in dreams
I stopped and stayed down.

If you try to be an abstinence failure in a dream
My will, or another higher being
Woke me up and made me open my eyes.

I only realized it today.
The female self that always comes out in dreams is
That it was a subself,

And the higher being who awakened me
In the Netherworld, the love interest
Self-identified Piscean Girlfriend Souls are
that it was a higher, higher self.
I just realized that.

* A higher being, yes, but I'm not sure I'd call it a self.

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🧠 A message from a dream

After the game, I asked myself.

‘Is this another failure...?’

However,
I never led to sexual behavior.
I just wanted to see the beauty of women.
I just wanted to connect to my loneliness.

Although associated with a character, the
Due to the inevitable dopamine stimulation
I had a headache.

Still, the old me would have done things differently.
I felt like I was amazing.

Now even my subconscious,
I realized that things were changing.
My brain circuitry, my orientation
Because I was convinced that it was completely changing.

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😌 Just wanted to cuddle

AbstinenceIran
Not tolerate,
What you really want to feel
Cultivate the power of distinction
I thought it was a process.

What I really want is
Not the dramatic scene with her, but the
Just being, looking, hugging,
that we were sharing warm feelings.
It's only now that I realize it more.

Unless this feeling is real love,
Amidst a sea of unrealistic stimuli
What the heck is love?

🔽 It contains the principles and effects of marigolds 🙂 .

The Goldenrod Effect: My brain is finally, finally coming back

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🐢 Now I'm growing

Back to reality,
The boredom did creep back in a bit.
But strangely...
That boredom has been replaced by
Me again ‘The real me’which seemed to take me to.

Yeah, I always needed this moment to grow.
But today is different.
What's left after the stimulus passes,
There was a deep sense of security and pride.

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💗 Abstinence was love, not oppression.

I'm finally convinced.
Abstinence is not oppression,
It's a process of learning to love.

If you see someone naked
My mind to not react unconditionally.
Just hugs, eye contact,
Smile ‘Like’My emotions to say.

This is not suppression,
It was respect, it was affection.

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This is my growth journal.
It's embarrassing for some people to see
The kind of thing that will one day be my memory...
But the person I am now is too precious to leave behind.
🐢✨