Body and mind, fully online today — a day of media detox and a commanding physique

Today was truly special. Not just a day when I felt good, but a day when both my body and mind felt full at the same time. It was truly “my big holiday.” A day I want to write down, piece by piece.

From the morning, my energy wasn’t that great. While practicing media detox, my emotions had stabilized a lot, but my motivation and sense of accomplishment were in ruins. But finally! I signed up at a big gym nearby. That gym was much bigger than I expected, and the lighting was in calm blue tones—an atmosphere that made it easy to focus. The music didn’t ruin my mood; it actually helped me get immersed.

I did weighted-vest cardio on the treadmill, and it was way more effective than what I’d been doing at home. Wearing an 11.5 kg weighted vest, running for 15 minutes and walking for 3—those short moments felt like pure gold, like training without having to sweat buckets under the blazing summer sun. But I was just as out of breath and just as refreshed. If anything, with the steady pace and the spacious area, I could focus more, and it felt like an even better workout.

And the real highlight was… I benched 100 kg! For real! A 20 kg bar plus four 20 kg plates! Exactly 100 kg! I never knew how heavy the barbell at home was, so it had been vague until now, but today I finally hit an “official record”. I’m so proud I could write it twice on the blog and it still wouldn’t be enough.

I increased the weight on weighted-vest push-ups by two levels, but I’m still holding at 18–19 reps, and the 22 kg side plank was intense but steady. It really felt like my body was locked in with strength. Especially today, the mirror in the shower was big enough to see all the way down to my legs… Wow… seriously… my body looked so good. Completely different from before, when I’d shrink back because I was “too skinny.” I felt packed with strength, my physical tension was up, and even at the gym I had no reason to feel intimidated.

And that wasn’t all. I got a haircut today too. The stylist was so kind, and the lovely teacher Yewon cut my hair, and the assistant even gave me a hand massage. My hands… were seriously soft and moisturized. Strangely, because I was getting it while looking at my phone, the sensations felt even deeper. It made me realize how sensitive the body can be—and how alive emotions can feel.

I ate sotbap (pot rice) out, and that was also amazing. Delivery food is definitely intense, but sotbap—while still a bit spicy—felt natural. There were lots of side dishes and plenty of tofu, and at the end there was even scorched rice tea… It was such a neat, healthy meal. And to finish, yogurt too! A perfect set!

Today, everyone genuinely seemed so kind. The gym staff, the salon staff, the restaurant staff. Everything clicked in a strangely perfect way, like the world was smiling at me. My emotions didn’t spike; a steady kind of joy kept going, and I think that was the effect of media detox and abstinence.

In the past, I had to take half a pill to even want to read, but today—even after taking a full pill—I still felt like reading. That was the first time I’d ever experienced something that felt like a miracle. My body had already stepped up into a commanding physique, and my mind was finding a balance point that didn’t waver between emotion, reason, and clarity.

This is what a day of “complete Seojun” looks like. Today wasn’t just a good day—it felt like a powerful sign pointing to how I should live going forward. I felt it so clearly today: days like this stack up and eventually make me who I am. So I’m determined not to forget this miracle of a day.

Emotions need time to mature too, so it’s okay if I can’t put it all into words right now. In a day or two, my heart will overflow again. I’ll write then. Remember today, and live tomorrow.

I’ve always stayed home, but from now on I think I’ll go out at least three times a week just to go to the gym. They say it’s a common struggle for freelancers or people who work alone, and I was so glad I could finally break that pattern. I’m actually fine on my own, but I think even I have a threshold—because I’m human too.

Because of the media detox and abstinence, I felt far less stress than before today, and I adapted well even in a new environment. I could connect with people emotionally, and everything flowed very naturally. Just banning stimulating or unhealthy media can bring results this big, so it feels like killing two birds with one stone. I really like being out and about now…! Hehe