A Heartfelt Letter to Someone Dear

Today, memories of someone dear weigh heavily on my mind,
so I’m trying to write a heartfelt letter.

There are days when you try to wake up in the morning, but feel hazy
and can’t quite shake off the sleepiness.

I was wondering how I could relieve my fatigue
and preparing to practice meditation, affirmations,
and smiling.

Then,
I happened to look through my phone’s photo album
and saw pictures of us on a trip.

Seeing your back view, something in my heart felt heavy.
Perhaps it’s because I now see you for who you truly are.

Back then, I watched a lot of stimulating YouTube videos,
and it was a time of dopamine overload…
Why was I so sensitive then?
Why couldn’t I see you for who you truly were?
I feel sorry.

Looking at your image in the photo,
you were so pure and beautiful.
It wasn’t just your appearance;
I felt it because I saw your clear heart.

These days…
I’m always thinking about how to make the world
a more beautiful place.

Why am I so obsessed with this?
It was simply my wish for people to act more righteously
and for the world to progress.

But, that wasn’t it.

I hated a world where my dear ones
were judged only by
their outward appearance,

and I was afraid and angry
that they might get hurt.
Why do pure and beautiful people
get hurt and blame themselves
because of unhealthy people?
I feel it’s so unfair.

Honestly,
there are times when people are rude to me
or express their emotions aggressively.

But I’m okay.

This isn’t to say it doesn’t bother me, but
for me, if I endure the pain, it ends.
However, seeing my dear ones get hurt
feels so sad and heartbreaking.

I thought I had lived for myself all this time.
Ever since I couldn’t see you.

But even that wasn’t true.
It seems I’ve always lived
for the people I cherish.

I don’t even know what I’m saying.
Why am I saying this?
My heart is just so heavy and sad
that I needed a moment to write.

The conclusion is this.

I’m really struggling right now.
The unfairness I receive ends if I endure it,
but I can’t stand the disadvantages my dear ones face.
Whether this is my greed or something else,
I want to change the world.

Only then will my heart feel at peace.

Some people
might call me a hypocrite,
or sometimes selfish,
and I don’t care.

Because if I can’t resolve this feeling now,
I’ll truly be sad and struggle…

So I…
will change the world.

Not for myself,
but for pure and kind people.

I will create a clean and beautiful world,
not one caught up in stimulating culture anymore.

I will do my best within my capabilities.

Even though it’s for my own peace of mind,
it’s also for you, my dear.

If I do nothing,
nothing will happen, right?

I know how.

I will start practicing today.

I am always grateful to you,
and I hold love in my heart.

Please forgive my shortcomings.
Well then, goodbye…!
I will repay you by changing the world.