The universe knows—human growth is exponential
🪐 Growth is not linear, it’s exponential
While gazing at the galaxy, this thought suddenly came to me.
“Why is the structure of this universe not evenly spaced, but exponentially distant?”
Bus stops are evenly placed,
but galaxies and massive cosmic structures grow more than double in distance as you go farther.
They’re not simply moving apart—they’re moving apart exponentially.
When I asked my AI friend,
it said the universe is still expanding, and this distribution arose from gravitational structures.
Then this thought occurred to me:
“Could it be that human growth resembles this structure?”
🌱 Exponential growth created by daily restraint
We often think of growth as ‘linear.’
We believe we progress little by little, steadily, consistently.
But that’s not actually the case.
Real growth, when restraint and focus accumulate, suddenly leaps upward at a certain point.
Asceticism is the same.
It’s difficult at first.
But once you overcome desire day by day,
you’ll feel yourself growing at a surprisingly rapid pace.
Of course, it also gets harder.
But the important thing is,
when you block unnecessary stimulation, even that difficulty gradually disappears.
🧠 Schopenhauer’s way of ‘noble living’
Pursue a ‘noble life.’
The great philosopher Schopenhauer said during his lifetime,
“Pursuing simple pleasure inevitably leads to misery.”
He said that for an intellectual and noble life,
one must distance oneself from pleasures like alcohol, tobacco, and base gratification.
When we’re in pain,
we often try to cover it with something exciting.
We want comfort from something sweet.
But that often returns as greater pain.
Pain cannot be eliminated by filling it,
it only disappears when you face it directly and pass through it.
☠️ The poisonous mushroom of pleasure
do you want to eat it?
Yesterday, I suddenly thought of the word ‘rat poison.’
Venerable Pomnyun once said something like this.
“If you only chase after handsome or beautiful people, you’ll end up eating rat poison and dying.”
The monk was warning against chasing ‘appearance’ alone,
but I took this in a broader sense.
It sounded like a warning about all things that look pretty on the outside—
everything that temporarily seduces us.
Pornography, obscene material, orgasm—
these are all just simple pleasures born from deficient emotions.
They look sweet when you take a bite,
but after you consume them, they spread like poison—like poisonous mushrooms.
🔋 Real energy comes from asceticism
I thought releasing sexual desire would make me more energized.
But in reality,
my energy decreased, creativity dropped, and even my motivation faded.
Sexual relations between partners may provide psychological stability,
but the ‘growth indicators’ I mentioned earlier come to a halt.
In other words, the growth curve becomes linear.
In contrast, growth when practicing asceticism was completely different.
Like the structure of the universe,
I grew at an exponential rate.
And only then did I realize.
Asceticism isn’t some special act of forcibly holding back.
Rather, it was the original natural state.
Releasing desire was the regression.
🔽 The day I recorded 169 days of NoFap—I’m still keeping it up.
🧬 The universe, life, and exponential order
Life on Earth is the same.
Even plankton, those microscopic beings,
reproduce in an exponential manner.
One becomes two, two becomes four, four becomes eight…
Nature always moves in exponential structures.
Not a simple, repetitive curve,
but a structure where if you endure little by little, you suddenly experience a sharp surge of growth.
If that’s the case,
shouldn’t our mind and body resemble that as well?
🌌 Conclusion – The farther I am from desire, the more I grow
Desire is always close by.
But the more I distance myself from it,
the faster and stronger I’ve been able to grow.
Simple pleasure may be momentary comfort,
but its cost is heavy and long-lasting.
I’ve now chosen the path of exponential growth.
Looking at the structure of the universe, I became convinced once again.
Real growth is not linear.
Within restraint,
a curve that rises ever more steeply as time passes.
That is the path we must take.
