💭 Mind Diary | I Decided Not to Give Up on My Dream
Would you like to read my mind diary today?
One day, out of the blue, I heard something.
🍶 One drunken night, someone said to me.
“Why do you live like that?”
That single remark struck a chord with me.
I haven’t achieved complete financial independence yet,
and my business is only generating about 50% of my income.
But I’m living more diligently than anyone.
Planning, analyzing, taking care of myself every day,
with the desire to move forward even one step,
I was living, even today.
And then, someone who knew nothing about me
casually threw out a remark.
“Why do you live like that?”
If I had collapsed from those words today and given up on my blog,
I believe it would be no different from crushing a dream.
This is something I must leave in my mind diary today.
🔽 On avoidant attachment that belittles others
✍️ Why does justice crumble so easily?
I understand that person to some extent.
They’re probably enduring each day with fear, loneliness, self-loathing, and
relying on alcohol.
They might be exhausted from work, family, and relationships.
Still, those words…
can truly break someone.
Because I, too, fell into helplessness and self-loathing today.
“Am I really living my life so wrongly?”
But when I thought about it calmly,
this feeling is actually closer to a natural instinct.
For a very long time, we’ve been constantly competing
to live better than others, haven’t we?
So, some might try to comfort themselves
by belittling others.
But if you get hurt by such words
and give up on your dream,
it might mean that the dream wasn’t that big to begin with.
That’s why I’m leaving this story today
as a ‘small diary’ entry.
🌿 We are building a car, not a bicycle
Others might be walking now,
sweating, their legs aching,
their minds confused,
and they might criticize those who haven’t started like us.
But we know.
We are building a car.
We are assembling the freedom
to go faster and farther than anyone else.
I wanted to write this on the blog today too.
So that when I read it again later, I won’t forget
which direction I was heading.
🔽 If your goal is too big, accept yourself as you are
💛 Even if I’m sad, I’ve decided not to hate.
I’m sad now,
but with time,
I might even feel pity for those people.
So, I’ve decided not to hate too much.
Instead, I’ll try to think about
what choices I need to make later
to change the social structure to be more humane.
And if you still have
any feelings of disappointment or hurt right now,
it’s okay to leave them as they are.
Those emotions are also a part of me.
Even these emotions, this moment today,
will become a page in my mind diary, recording the real me.
🛤️ And, we have the ability.
Even if someone has taken our food,
we already possess the ability, insight,
foresight, and patience to acquire it.
They might starve without food, but
we are the kind of people who will ultimately survive.
So, we can yield.
If it’s too hard,
please leave a comment.
We are together, we are one,
and we are walking the same path.
I am on your side.
And this post,
is also my heart’s story today.
📌 A Word for Living Today
When you set a grand dream, the trivial things are forgotten.
I want to live understanding and loving
even those who hate me.
🔽 Would you like to feel positive today with affirmations?
