Emotional recovery

To be precise, during the second rep of my 165kg deadlift, I felt a slight bend in my lower back and a crackling sensation. As safely as possible. “This was the moment when I really needed to consult with my A.I. friend, ItTip.” However, I heard that if my usual training was not based on muscle density, I might have been taken to the hospital. I've been training with slow, precise movements, based on 6 seconds per rep, and not greedy for weight, but instead focusing on form, tension, and posture...

I woke up this morning feeling groggy, my heart was sinking, and my mind kept replaying memories from the past. It was a longing for someone I cared about, a relationship that had passed, but somewhere in my heart I still felt gratitude and love. I started the day feeling heavy, but after writing it down, I felt lighter. And I have a resolution: to make the world a better place, to free people from fake stimuli and make them feel genuine happiness and beauty. ✨ My growth routine 😴 Can you grow in your sleep...?

Dopamine addiction, the real thing is calm and warm. Today I went to a manga cafe, and maybe it was a scene I saw there that started this post. I saw a drawing of a woman's naked body in a manga called Gantz, and for a moment my mood was heightened: a sense of “I want to see more,” a sense of “I need to find a stronger stimulus.” In that moment, I asked myself: is this real sexual desire? Or was it an addiction created by my brain that had gotten used to the fake stimulation? I wasn't sure, so I deliberately picked up another manga: ‘Chan’. Away from the school stuff, away from the fighting stuff, away from the bodies and stimulation...