Voyage of the Unconscious: The Night a Dream Cleansed My Childhood Wounds
Embrace serene peace.
I had been abstinent again for over seven weeks.
We went from two weeks of repeated failure every time to
Willpower and awareness got me through it.
Eliminating false desires is
Because you're not resting, you're getting weaker.
It's different for everyone, but
Staying abstinent is not in itself a strong form of self-improvement,
That's the Normal stateI thought.
That made it easier to get there.
Yesterday, I felt like I wanted to see a female character,
I vowed not to let myself be driven by stimuli anymore.
I'll look at it later, but for today I just wanted to focus on my senses.
And when you go to sleep at night and think about
The unexpected Strange Dreamsand you'll have....
Healing the wounds and conflicts in my childhood family.
It was a dream that I was proud to fulfill.
My dream, written down in a journal...
[Scene 1 - Home].
I am lying in some accommodation.
My brother was offended that I posted pictures of myself on my blog or YouTube without his permission.
So I got into a fight with my brother and he went into the other room.
But I could see that my blog or YouTube fanboy had gone to my brother through the bathroom in the next room.
(The toilets must have been open to each other.)
I say in a low voice, Bodyguard will be here in 10 seconds. Do it!
10... 9... 8... and then 1 second.
At that moment, a fan suddenly surprised me and hit me.
It was really scary.
[Scene 2 - Hamburger House].
The scene changes, you're eating a burger, and you and your brother have had another fight.
No matter how much I tried to talk to him, he wouldn't talk back.
But the clerk was so kind to serve me, and I was so grateful.
But then he suddenly gets hungry and doesn't say anything for two hours.
I extended a conciliatory hand, asking if he could have some of mine.
Although it felt like something was for me,
I felt bad and sad that I had been talking to myself all this time.
I yelled angrily at my brother, asking him if he thought I'd like it if he didn't talk to me.
[Scene 3 - In the streets at night].
The scene changes, and I'm looking for my brother, and I ask the clerk and he leads me to him.
I fought it and ended up harming it, but it turned out to be a small doll.
When I asked the clerk for the doll's name, it was a woman's name, with a different last name.
I asked again, and he said his brother was inside, so I went in through the open door.
Somehow we got into another fight and I ended up hurting my brother.
[Scene 4 - Cabin on a train].
Suddenly, I woke up lying down in an interior room,
There were my older brother and his younger sisters.
I didn't wish for my brother's death, so I apologized and we reconciled.
You're about to tell your brother a great, transcendent secret.
I cautiously said it was nothing for fear of offending my brother.
I think it was on a train, and there were all my relatives and family.
[Scene 5 - Movie Theater Atmosphere].
After that, the scene changed and I was lying down, and I heard the sound of opera, and I was ecstatic.
But the second time, a witch demon appeared, and she started cursing me again, right next to me.
But I was being an observer, being still and feeling.
And then people were like, ‘Oh, you're not doing that anymore,’ and they were like, "Oh, you're not doing that anymore," and they were like, "Oh, you're so excited.
The witch screamed and bit my index finger, the last straw.
It was a little scary, but I stayed with it.
The witch then collapsed in a fit of vomiting, and I could feel it all over me.
But it didn't feel tingly, it felt like energy, like a vacuum.
[Scene 6 - Reality].
Soon the witch's breathing became my real breathing, and my breathing became less and less frequent,
Just when I thought the witch was dead, the alarm went off at exactly the right time to wake me up.
My Interpretation of Dreams (Dream Interpretation)...
We analyzed each symbol.
[Scene 1].
Blog fans = money and fame from blogging, but who later devour you.
Fan enters brother's room = my money and honor helps him too. Maybe in a bad way.
Calling my bodyguard = my strength, my usual workout. (But it didn't come)
[Scene 2].
Hamburger = instant, not good for you, symbol of dopamine, but good to know (and good for you when it's less frequent)
Friendly burger joint clerk = attitude or warmth of people due to money. My ideal world.
Asking if I can eat after my brother is silent = a gaze of understanding, but also realistic hunger.
Momentarily angry me = anger and resentment for not recognizing me all these years. Including childhood.
[Scene 3].
The clerk you meet when looking for your brother answers obediently = symbolizing the power of money and honor.
I thought it was my brother, so I fought him and killed him, but it turns out that Baby Doll (girl's name) =
Discovering my childhood female self, wounded in battle.
Later death of older brother = anger from wounded girl's ego eventually hurts love.
[Scene 4].
Woke up to find brother alive and siblings = new reality due to pre-enlightenment. Love is reborn.
Apologizing to my brother = giving up my misguided desire. But the feeling still remains.
Doesn't want his brother's death even though he's angry = symbolizes choosing love over money and survival.
Hesitant to talk about my great future accomplishments after reconciling with my brother = I now value love more than money and ability.
Family and relatives on the train = money and honor carrying love.
[Scene 5].
But feeling like you watched a movie = everything was a simulation, unconscious or imagined.
Witch demon enters = my evil survival desires left in my unconscious.
The Wicked Witch = The Dark Side of Money and Honor
Reason for being a witch (woman) = female -> symbol of male survival -> circuit of pornography
Observing curses = now just observing, not following.
The murmur of people who saw it = my unconscious emotion (relief surprise)
Index finger = symbolizes direction or goal. (symbolizes survival instinct)
The witch's final act = biting her index finger, which is an act to provoke the target once again.
Scared but observing = jeopardized but eventually overcome by observing.
The devil fell down vomiting = vomited up all his wrong desires and disappeared.
Witch's Death = Extinguishment, release, purification from it
[Scene 6].
The breath of the devil = the breath of reality = the devil symbolizes what used to be within. Eventually disappeared.
Well-timed alarms = a cleanse that happened all thanks to my thorough planning.
Proud = my emotions from the unconscious cleansing, noticing.
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How I feel when I wake up from a dream...
I woke up, drank a glass of water, and wrote it down in my journal,
The time had passed an hour.
Something, a lot of fatigue.
I quickly ate breakfast.
However, my interpretation of the dream is that
Something about it makes me feel good.
I really feel like the obscenity circuit is now completely dead.
Pornography from your childhood,
No big deal, everybody sees it, it's a guy thing.
But now I'm realizing that I'm the one who's ruining it.
No excuses, just a head-on confrontation that resulted in the death of a demonic witch.
More and more, my inner
I'm on my way to serenity, growth, and enlightenment.
My brother and I have very different personalities.
We used to argue a lot...
For now, we understand each other and
I'm just grateful to exist.
Type = Type B ENTJ
I = Type A ESFJUnderstanding relationships across different worldviews
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