Emotional essays

📞 I received a loan solicitation call from Hyundai Card today I received a loan solicitation call from Hyundai Card today. Since I've always used and trusted them, I was curious to see if the terms were different from the last time. The agent's tone was friendly at first, but the flow of the conversation felt a bit one-sided. I felt like she wasn't listening to me enough, and I could hear a hint of anxiety and anger in her voice. Still, I recognized the emotion and didn't want to jump to conclusions, so I said “thank you” at the end and hung up. And soon enough, I calmed down and...

🏛️ A country where bodybuilders are power There's a country where bodybuilders are worshipped, where muscles are character, where the thickness of your triceps determines your social status, where routines are the constitution, chicken breasts are a religion, and cheat day is a holiday. There lived a legendary bodybuilder in the country who weighed 120 kilograms, who ran 4 kilometers every day, climbed stairs in a weight vest, and ended the day with a ‘sculpted’ high-protein diet. In a world where others are applauded for benching 200 kilograms, he benched 300 kilograms as a “light shoulder...

I had been abstinent again for over seven weeks now, and every time I'd hit the two-week mark, I'd get through the days of failure with willpower and awareness, because getting rid of unhealthy desires isn't about getting stronger, it's about getting weaker. It's different for everyone, but I felt that maintaining abstinence wasn't a strong personal development in itself, that it was a normal state of being.Yesterday, I felt like watching a female character, and I told myself that I wouldn't let myself be swayed by the stimulus anymore, so even if I watched it later, today I just wanted to focus on my senses. And when I went to sleep at night, I had unexpected and strange dreams...