Emotional essays

What Subconscious Cleansing Really Looks Like We often believe that “growth comes with pain”: that in order to grow, you have to have sore muscles, and in order to change your life, you have to go through pain.It feels ‘real“ because we've all been through a lot of pain. However, I'm standing in front of a different realization now... A few hours ago, I was struggling emotionally. My mood was sinking deeply, and a black mass of emotion was rising inside me. I felt suffocated, like I was trapped in a maze that I couldn't escape from no matter what I did. I used to think, "Oh, the pain is testing me again...

One day, out of the blue, I heard it 🍶 One day, while drunk, someone said to me, “Why are you living the way you are?” Those words hit me like a ton of bricks.I'm not completely financially independent right now, and I'm only making about 50% from my business, but I'm living harder than anyone else.I'm planning, analyzing, and taking care of myself every single day, trying to move forward one step at a time.Today, I'm still living, and I'm still living. A person who knows nothing about me said that to me. “Why do you live like that?” If today, that...

We all have that person in our lives. They're soft-spoken, always smiling, and affectionate... but strangely, they never seem to deepen the relationship. On the surface, they seem polite and nice, but when conflict arises, they disappear, and when responsibility arises, they make excuses and slip away. They may be smiling, but you don't feel it. We often refer to this person as “avoidant”. People with avoidant attachment are not honest with their feelings and feel fearful when they get close, so they don't say what they really mean, and in uncomfortable situations, they turn to “haha~” laughter. It's a laugh that's so good that it's...

When I was younger, I thought it was right to go fast. I believed I should be ahead of everyone, accomplish more, and go farther. But these days, I'm choosing to slow down. Instead of chasing records, I watch my breathing, and instead of chasing change, I watch my sensations. Instead of pushing my body, I choose to ‘feel’ each movement. I realize that's growth. 💭 Today was one of those days. When I was doing handstand pushups, I tried to push my feet as far away from the wall as possible, and my abs and abs reacted in a ridiculous way. Instead of trying to ‘be’ something, I'm ‘now"...