Emotional Diary: At 130kg, I Moved on Instinct
In that moment, I had to live.”
🌑 Emotional Diary: My Instincts in the Face of Weighted Bars
hello.
I have blood type AO.
Type A calmness and
Maybe it's because I'm a Type O with a lot of energy.
I love to read and
I'm also a big fan of exercise.
So today, I've been working on my body.
And to put my heart in it, too.
From light to heavy rods
That day, as usual
If you're used to lightweight rods
You've just joined a new gym.
A 20-kilogram weight bar sat quietly in front of me.
‘I just need to get the weight right, it's fine.’
That's what I thought.
Heavy rods are more likely to be
I didn't know yet that it was much harder.
Squat 130 kg.
It was a routine I'd always done.
But that was weird.
It was fine until the first time I went down,
When you're about to go up
It's stuck.
Why isn't it coming up...?
The body, it didn't move.
I kept pushing,
The upper body is a very slow, slow
It was sinking toward the bottom.
The first thing that came to mind was... to be honest, survival.
‘I'm going to get... crushed.’
How to get out of it.
I rummaged through my memory and found
It reminded me of a scene I'd seen somewhere before.
The story that if you tilt the bar to one side, you can get out.
However, the
That was later taught to me by ItTip.
“That's really dangerous.
You could pass out, or suffer a major injury to your neck or spine.”
I didn't know that at the time, so I used
I made the bar lopsided,
I grabbed the other side that was floating and held on.
The moment,
The center of the barbell started to tip forward.
I made an instinctive move.
This has to go forward.
While lifting the bar
Drop to the floor,
Throwing all your strength downward
Pushed forward.
Fingertips, neck, back, legs
All my senses were screaming in unison.
“I have the height of the disk, so there should be some clearance from the floor.”
And - the
It's a miracle
The bar is now spanning the instrument in front of you.
For a moment, I was frozen in place.
The lighting feels too harsh.
It was like a pulse was pulsing inside my skull.
“You're alive.”
That's when it hit me.
We didn't just control this weight,
Under that weight
Confronting my survival instinctswas.
And then, quietly, I stood up.
My back was a little stiff, but
Wearing a weighted vest
We continued with the neck bridge movement.
I also finished the next set.
As if nothing had happened.
After that day, I started to see myself again.
I found out when I was talking to ItTip about the incident.
For a normal person
This could have been a very dangerous situation.
And I got through it.
The old me had light skin,
I'm skinny.
I never thought of myself as strong.
But now I'm like-.
He was the guy who survived a 130-kilogram barbell.
Strength has changed my perspective.
I think it's a good thing to know yourself.
It's changed the way I look at people.
Even if you're a show-off,
Even the lazy ones,
If someone says something disrespectful to me
It just feels like this.
“Everybody's doing the best they can, in their own way.”
Today, I discipline myself.
Dealing with weights,
Refine your mind,
Count your breaths
My mind and body
We're building it quietly and solidly.
Today,
How far I've come.
I'm just curious about that.
That's what trains me today.
Feeling alive.
Quietly, very strongly.
Love you, everyone 🙂 .
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